lonely day ~ T.T

today morning i wake up so blur , feel vomit n head pain .. haih .. but why i still can remember last time d things ow ?? haih .. i real very heart pain ow , i real thx her caring for me last time .. i very happy last time she acc me all the time , i real very happy .. i so miss her kiss , hug n hw she treat me .. the feeling is very strong in my mind .. haih .. i real cant forgot her , i will still put her in my heart , haih .. i hope she knw hw i really love her .. last time she tell me all her bf .. but i knw im the 1 treat her most good in all of thm .. i real knw this .. cos whn she tell me all about it .. i knw im sure the 1 treat her most good .. i knw cant everyday out n with u go gaigai but my heart still is jst love u 1 .. no matter wht i still so love u .. haih , but today i nw jst can wish u happy only lurh .. haih , my most love d ppl also leave me jorr .. T.T , whn she last time get hurt , i promise her not to let ppl hurt her anymore , i wan protect her with my whole life .. but haih .. last im the 1 get hurt till so deep .. haih , i hope her future bf will treat her very very good , i hope the boy will love her more thn loving his ownself .. i wish he get do better thn me .. haih , i real feel so lonely jorr .. wht oso no use jorr .. so lonely jorr , no ppl cant acc me anymore .. haih , i wan out with frenz make myself dnt think so much but i knw i sure cant do tat cos i cant out when i wan .. haih .. my life is real so empty jorr , life = 0 , haih .. can we believe love anymore ?? love is jst making ppl feel so hurt .. haih , she always say she love me till 4ever n ever .. she wont leave me till the end of her life .. every time i oso hear but is all fake , fake !! haih .. love real make me cant believe anymore , haih .. my whole life i jst first time get so hurt .. real first time , haih .. liu lei or liu xue more painful ?? liu lei rite ?? haih .. whn u liu lei it hurt till so deep n u feel die n hurt ur ownself .. haix .. T.T , the things i tell her this morning .. i hope she will understand me ~ hmm .. haih , my life = zero already .. tats all for today my feel ~
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